I need a break.....seriously!

We were supposed to be heading back to the hometown on Wednesday night and spend the short and precious time with our family members until Sunday.

But, he suddenly fell sick (coz of too stubborn and stayed up late doing unimportant stuffs for the past week or so)....and still not feeling well now.

OK...I admit I am a bit annoyed that the plan goes down the drain now.

But honestly, it's not about me wanting to go back to hometown so much but this is like the ONLY time ever in 6 months that I actually get to go out of the house / state and pretend like going back home is being on holiday!

I SERIOUSLY NEED A BREAK FROM EVERYTHING. IF THERE'S SUCH A THING AS ANNUAL LEAVE FROM BEING IN THE HOUSE, I SERIOUSLY NEED IT!!!

Don't get me wrong. I love my little boy and don't mind being with him all the time.

The problem is, when I'm around and being the main person to tend to all his needs, it is seriously tiring and it gets annoying when that one person is busy on FB and playing with his phone while I'm trying to do so many things at the same time.

I am really annoyed coz he always has the opportunity to be away and doesn't feel the need for a break like I do - e.g. business trips, company team building trips, drinking session with friends, etc. What about me???? I have never had any "ME" time for ages....the only "ME" time I had were during the days I attend the MBA classes. And each time when I talk about planning for a holiday or short getaway, the answer will surely be, "You got lots of money?" or worse, "You said you wanted to start investing for future and bla bla bla but now you're planning for a holiday...." -.-

I am seriously thinking of buying some tickets, send my boy back to hometown for a few days and go somewhere myself. Even if it's only a 2 days 1 night getaway, it is good enough!!!

I am honestly tired......

The fight between the Angel and Devil

Today, the Angel and Devil had a fight. The Angel lost the battle and Miss Emo took over. I lost it completely, of all things in the office. :(((

I read somewhere the other day and I'm pretty sure there are many mummies who feel the same way. Have you ever felt torn between your job and your kid? When you think about it over and over again, you will get tons of questions appearing in the brain. What if, one of these days, you can only choose either one of it? No doubt, my little boy is more important but....what happens if....? And what happens next?....

*Tears welling up again* :(

I'll share the list of questions next time.

Hello....

I'm back to blogging again after....erm, 10 years?